August 19, 2009 -- Until this weekend I thought I was tired of working for a living. Lets face it: if it was supposed to be fun, they would not call it Work. Even racing drivers spend most of their time pounding around the track watched only by people who are really not watching them; they are watching digital readouts that tell them the really important stuff and its not how beautiful the car is or how it looks in motion or even how well the supple hands on the wheel and the dancing toes on the pedals make the machine scythe through the air. Odds are pretty good that the man in the capsule is not, generally speaking, having fun. He is straining for the subtle variation in each of his four tires so somebody staring at white numbers on a blue screen can match up what he thinks with what those digits say.
So even people whose jobs look like fun to me are not having any more fun than I am when I get off the elevator in the morning and trudge to my desk to begin another day of earning a living. So what am I tired of then?
Well, Daddy used to say that its not one thing after another that gets you; its the same thing over and over. That is what makes me tired. I have done this job for 23 years and theres nothing about it that is new or fresh or interesting or entertaining.
Last weekend I reached back five or six years and signed up for a three day race weekend at Trois-Rivieres, Quebec, a quick dash up the highway to a Foreign Land that is nothing like the good old days of the Channel Dash to Le Mans, but a change is as good as a rest sometimes and Lord, I needed a rest.
So at midnight I boarded a brand-new double-decker Megabus, the modern way of travel for midnight riders; on board it had wi-fi, seat belts, leg room and plenty of seats (because everyone in Toronto spends a lot of time going back and forth to Montreal). Seven hours through the night, with an hour stop in Kingston at 3:00 a.m. that was supposed to be 20 minutes but at that hour nobody cared and the bus driver made up the time. I gathered up my stuff and sat on the kerb waiting for my photographer who was caught in Montreal traffic, and was as always visited by beggars asking for money for food, for bus fare, and one honest beggar for money to replace the prescription drugs he had sold on the street the night before. During a Depression, even beggars have to hustle. Inwardly I said *I am American; get a job.* Outwardly I just said No.
Trois-Rivieres is about 90 minutes from Montreal, and on the way up Jamie and I discussed what we would do when we got to the track, plus the viability of all the racing series, whether Jacques Villeneuve was crazy to think driving a NA$CAR at his age was a career choice, and who in the world let Patrice Brisbois (a hockey player from Montreal whom we were trying to get deported back in 1996, for heavens sake) drive a touring car in a tight and twisty track in the blazing sun. Everyone in Quebec attends this weekend, and this was the 40th anniversary of a race that had seen Canadas only racing superstar discovered by Formula 1. Hotel rooms had sold out in November. We had a quaint motel on the outskirts of town, with a French-speaking ownership who, Jamie assured me, held no grudge against les anglais at least as customers. We would see it after we had put in a full day of work.
Credentialed and established at the same work station we had last year, we unpacked our gear: laptop, day book, schedule, green folder with paperwork, pen, marker, tape, jump drives ... and Jamie had all his photography stuff besides. On our desks were the opening round of gifts from the Chamber of Commerce, who loved us. A quick break for pan du chocolat and coffee, and off he went to stand in the sun and capture hurtling cars in the hands of teenagers who were young enough to be absolutely fearless. It was still early at Road America so nothing had come in over the transom just yet. I started making notes for an atmosphere piece and for an interview with a young driver who firmly believed he was ready to jump straight from a junior formula to Formula One. My spirits lifted as I questioned him and heard his cheerful optimism, his firm confidence, his undimmed delight in every facet of what had to be an exhausting and largely unrewarding days work -- because everyone in Trois-Rivieres knew him by name and team, and a cluster of respectful younger boys stood just outside the wire with hero cards and Sharpies, waiting to catch his eye and ask please, Mr. Summerton, can I have your autograph? Jamie was off in the other corner of the garage interviewing Summertons teammate who had been at the racing gig longer and was not so optimistic but still clearly enjoying what he was doing. When we walked back into the press centre we saw a scrum of jostling, crowding photographers and reporters surrounding Jacques Villeneuve, who is my size (five feet three) and looked rather flustered; he is at the other end of his career and knows what those boys still do not know: tout casse, tout lasse, tout passe even in racing and nobody ever asks an original question.
So the weekend went, dashing from one appointment from the next, checking the mail to see what they were doing in Wisconsin, barely keeping up with stuff, stuffing the unending pieces of paper passed out by circulating copy girls into the green folder for later on, except for those needed when Jamie came back with the photos from each session and asked *What do you want?* and *What number car is he?*
Friday night we were too tired for any excursions on the town -- a few, a very few years ago we would have dropped off our gear and headed downtown for the festivities which are always plenty and entertaining. We picked up beer and sandwiches and collapsed in front ofan episode of Top Gear, then Jamie took a shower and I went to bed and woke up the next morning when his alarm went off at 6:00 a.m. I bolted in and took my shower and dressed, made sure I had my phone, my credentials, my pen, and my jump drive (all of which hang around my neck) and we piled into the car to head again for the track.
Saturday is qualifying day for the five different series on hand; Friday was qualifying in Wisconsin, so I had seven documents to post, photos to sort through, another interview to prepare, and one to edit. Lunch time came and we met for a conference over the plenteous food, then away went Jamie with his camera and I went back to work. That days driver was very young, very British and very sure of himself too. I left their garage with a lighter step. All afternoon we worked, taking brief time outs for a look at the monitor screens where people were racing in things we didnt cover. Then the dash back to the hotel and drop off the stuff, change out of work clothes and hurtle downtown for a good dinner in a nice restaurant and an outstanding fireworks show. Downtown was jammed and so were the good restaurants. We had Italian in a place down near the water where we had gone some other year, then walked down the hill to the fireworks which were even more impressive than usual. Then back to the motel and to sleep.
Sunday we checked out and spent the day covering races -- there were seven races to be written up and photographed and edited and arranged on the page, with brief pauses for dinner and no chance at all to go outside for me. I always plan to go outside on Sundays and I never have yet. The fastest woman in Atlantics History, who has broken all the records for women at that track and all the series records for women, won the Atlantics race. There was a dispute about who won the Star Mazda race but everyone was gracious. The local favourite,who was not Jacques,won the NA$CAR race. And we packed up and dashed to the car and hurtled toward Montreal, where Iboarded my double decker with five minutes to spare, went to sleep on the way, got cheated by a cab driver when I got home and tumbled into bed at 3:30 a.m. to sleep 4 hours and then wash, dress, pack a lunch and head off to my boring day job.
And looking at the pile of luggage and realizing I had automatically put on my racing credential, I realized that I was really not tired of working. I had gone flat out from midnight to evening, from dawn to night, for three days and I had not been bored even once. Racing may be getting harder and harder as I grow older, but what it has not gotten is boring.
And no matter how long I spend travelling to race weekends, its never going to turn into work.
All I really need is to switch gears.
Things that make you go hmmmmmmmmmm.